Hide and Seek

A few months ago I downloaded this free album by Matt Wertz and have been falling in love with it. There is this one song that has just really hit my heart and I have been praying through the lyrics of the song because they so closely relate to my life and to the place and position that God currently has me in.

Take a listen and read through the lyrics with me:

Counting to 100

By: Matt Wertz

Never been much good on my own
So I'm tryin' to find somebody else
Never been good at findin' much except
Loneliness all by myself
Spottin' you ain't been easy
And what's a boy to do
Cause I got this spot right beside me baby
Waiting here just for you

So you go hide
And I'll come seek
Maybe someday in the middle
We just might meet
Cause I'm counting to a hundred
And I promise I won't peek
As you go hide
And I come seek

How much longer will this game go on
I guess only time will tell
I hate to hear that you're all alone
Overlooked in search of someone else

So you go hide
And I'll come seek
Maybe someday in the middle
We just might meet
Cause I'm counting to a hundred
And I promise I won't peek
As you go hide
And I come seek

Please show your face
Because I want you to be it...yeah
I want you to be it

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I think this song relates to how I feel currently... I am hiding. Hiding in God's love and in the comfort of His arms, strength, and security. As I hide, I continue to seek God out, praying through life and praying for my husband and that he is seeking. I pray that he is seeking me, desiring to know who I am and for me to be revealed to him. But he has to seek God in that process and we both have to wait on God's perfect timing. I can't wait for the day that "some day (hopefully soon!) in the middle we just might meet". Because God's timing is perfect, neither of us can peek in that process because it will ruin what God has and what He has intended. It makes me think of me hiding behind a curtain awaiting for God to make the big reveal, I can't peak or attempt to pull back the curtain otherwise it will be like that moment (I think of the Wizard of Oz) where Dorothy pulls back the curtain and it's not this big and mighty wizard, but rather this tiny little man. Just to say that God's timing is so perfect. I am so excited for the day that God reveals who he wants me to be in relationship with and someday marry. For him to say one day that he wants me "to be it". I can't wait for the reveal of when I get to see my husband for the very first time as I am presented to him pure, and all dressed in white. For the day that he will pull back my veil and for my face as his bride and wife "be it".

Until that day, I continue to seek God and become the woman that God intends me to be. To be learning and growing and allowing myself to be stretched and I will continue to pray for you sweet Prince Charming and for the day that we are each others "it".

I can't wait... so I'm going to go hide, as we both seek and someday soon we will meet... I'll be counting to 100...