A Glimpse of Mi Vida...

It started with a missions trip to Camden, where my life and perspective were changed and where this blog began. Life has been a roller coaster filled with its ups and downs and I'm excited for the adventure and discovering what God has in store, even though I really dislike roller coasters... I am a Lady in Waiting...

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

U = Unbelievable Amounts of Emotion

U is for Unbelievable Amounts of Emotion

Today I shall also join my first blog hop for The Way I See it Wednesdays...

The way I see it, emotions are good.

"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." -Romans 12:2

I am attempting to not be conformed and my emotions are causing me to be transformed. For the longest time I covered up my feelings and emotions, I bottled things up until they evaporate or the bottle exploded from the pressure.

Now I feel like an open book and try to be as transparent as possible. Peru brought so much emotion out of me. They first few days in Cusco  I remember beging so emotion, I would cry and I couldn't fully describe what was going on without talking in circles. I cried when I was made fun of by my team members and when my motives were questioned. I cried with my team and out to God when I felt my physcial abilities seemed inadequate to properly help or keep up with the team. I cried out of happiness and joy as I was realizing my connection and attachement to the city, I was falling in love with it. I got emotional as I sang praises to God in another language and saw as the testimonoies of our team moved and touched the congregation. I gought back teaers as we prayed over our missionaries and the amazing work they were doing as we saw God move and work in Cusco.

I laughed as we played Apples to Apples each night in our tired dillusion of making no sense for the reasoning of howe we picked and played. I grinned ear to ear as a little girl wanted to hold my had and go everywhere with me.

I used to dislike all of the emotions I felt, but thinking back now my emotions allowed me to love and feel. They allowed me pour out my feelings  to God and to my team. I felt connected because of the emotions I felt. My emotions have allowed me see God's love, grace, beauty, and perfection.

The way I see it, my emotions some silent as tears stream down my cheeks or as I cannot contain a joyful smile, and some out loud with praise and adoration... my emotions are beautiful.

1 comment:

Jackie said...

I love this, Jenn. I love that you are learning to love your emotions. I am so glad that Peru worked such a miracle in your life.
I also love the picture of the little girl. That photo is worth more 1000 words and it is also worth a lot of flamingos!!